But to my surprise as the weeks passed, the most disorientating dark gripped me. Like a demented dog, I went from room to room, to park, to library, to every kind of public and private place trying to write this thing. The images, the people and places remained so clear, yet nothing satisfactory would happen.
Then gradually it dawned on me that some sort of intellectual pride held me back from the only possible conclusion.
It is not enough to seek and care; to pay lip service to all manner of ideals. Real witness is what counts. Why is it so difficult?
It is something to do with leaps in the dark. Recognising that truth is hidden. But transformation towards truth is something else. It is practice and diligence as Lama Jigmé said.
Referring to belief and faith Thomas Merton wrote, 'We do not see first and then act; we act, then see.'
From On Pilgrimage: A Time To Seek (1991) by JENNIFER LASH
(My photo shows the late 12th century figure of Saint James, the centrepiece of the Pórtico de la Gloria, welcoming pilgrims to the Cathedral of Santiago de Compostela.)